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Dear Grandpa
As I think about the last 10 years I can’t help but feel overwhelmed with emotion. This has been a hard week for me to handle. I didn’t think your 10 year anniversary of when you left us would be so hard. The past few years have been “easy” and I use that very lightly, they just have not been as emotional. I think because time truly heals everything. I have broken down countless of times this week because I can not believe that it has been 10 years since I last saw you. The only time I get to see you or get close to you is in my dreams or my hypnotherapy appointments. But I truly feel you around all the time. I can sense it and feel it to my core because even though you are not here in the flesh you are here in spirit. And as a strong spirit.
I wanted you here for so many things that I have been through. I lost myself after you left. You were my rock, my hero, my best friend and the person I considered a father figure. I miss the days when we used to joke around. I miss wanting to walk down to your house from mine to see you every day. I just really miss you. It took about 3 years for me to feel like myself again and to not let the grief of you being gone hinder my life. That’s when things became “easy.” You were gone and I had to learn that and stop dwelling on the past. But then I met Kurt. My husband. The man that I married. I used to feel guilty for anyone I dated after you passed away because the person I was with or you thought I was with, we were actually broke up but I didn’t tell you because everything was so stressful at the time that I didn’t want to worry you. You loved the person I was with and accepted him and felt comfort in knowing I was with him but such as life, things don’t always work out. But I felt guilty for the other people I dated after you were gone. I wanted your acceptance and your approval of the person I was with. Thankfully your son, my Dad came to the rescue and actually helped Kurt and I get together. I sometimes wonder if you were working through my Dad to bring me a man that would sweep me off my feet and become my husband. Do you know he takes me to visit you? No questions asked, I say “hey can you take me to my grandpa?” I have visited you a lot. It took a long time for me to come to your grave site. But I actually like going now because I know you are there.
I think about the last few weeks we had with you. How we were able to celebrate your birthday and just be around you as much as we could. I have never forgiven myself because when it was the end I saw you every day up until about 3 days before you passed. I couldn’t come see you because I had a cold. I will never forget the gut wrenching feeling I had when my Mom told me you past away. I fell to my knees and I didn’t even know what to do. My Mom thought I was crazy because I wanted to go down and see you one last time. As scary as it was to see you after you had passed I just had to see you, and tell you how much I loved you. 10 years later and I feel like I am going through that day all over again. You were such a huge part of my life that is why this is so hard.
I had pictured for the longest time that you would actually have been the one to walk me down the aisle on my wedding day. You were there, I felt your presence and you were pinned to my bouquet of flowers. And now you hang from my rear view mirror in my car. I wonder how you and Kurt would have interacted. I wonder how you would have liked our dog Brooke. I wonder how you would have been when I went to prom. I wonder how you would have been when I graduated High School. I wonder how you would have been like when I graduated College and went to Italy for the first time. I wonder how you would have been on my wedding day. I wonder how you would have been when I moved to Upstate NY for my husband and then Texas and now Washington. I feel like you would have visited me while I was in Texas and now Washington. You were my supporter and someone who believed in me. Your little girl. I so badly wish I could hear that one more time and hug you. I remember surprising you and visiting you at Cleveland Clinic after you had your Liver transplant and how happy you were to see me. I was with you through thick and thin with your sickness.
Things have not been easy since you have been gone for us as a family. I think if you are watching over us you see it all. It feels very divided and I am actually disappointed to see where we are with out you 10 years later. I wish we felt more together since you have been gone. I didn’t realize how much of a glue you were for us. It didn’t seem like it because you pissed off a lot of people. But I saw a bigger and better side of you. So I understand how you were the glue for our family.
I can’t wait to see you again one day. But I can wait. I still have a long life to live and live with you still by my side. I found comfort in a medium who connected me with you as well as a hypnotherapist. I could feel the hug and you that I experienced in the hypnotherapy appointment and I could feel your presence and support when I went and saw a medium because I needed to connect with you some how. Things have changed Grandpa. I just wish you could have been here to see it all. Keep watching over all of us. Tucker, Lauren, Ryan and myself. As well as your own kids. You also have some grandkids too now from my sister and Ryan that you need to watch over. You would love them all so much.
I hope and pray I have done right by you. I hope you are proud of me even with my mess ups in life. I wish I could have the confirmation but I just need to pray for the signs from you to show me that. I miss you and I love you. XOXO Love your little girl. ❤
RIP Grandpa 9.28.1936 – 11.7.09
Thank you to anyone that read this. Grief comes in waves. It can be gone for a few years and then it can come right back. Dealing with the death of my Grandpa at 17 was very hard for me and confusing. It was probably one of the hardest things I have dealt with. I am so thankful I was able to know this man and that he made the impact he did on my life. A very positive one.
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Wine and Candy pairing for Halloween!
Happy Halloween!!!
Last year I did a blog post on a bottle of wine to have while you passed out candy or stayed up watching scary movies. As well as a recipe for red wine hot chocolate. Which I still recommend to have. It was delicious. I never thought I would like hot red wine. But the right red wine with chocolate is fabulous.
This year I decided to finally try a candy and wine pairing. I realized when I was trying the candies and wine together that I should have made this a YouTube video for my channel because it would have been hilarious because my first tasting did not come out the way I wanted. So next year I am definitely adding this to the list of videos to film in the month of October. I think it would have been so good and hilarious.
This is my honest opinion of these wine pairings. I am not going to lie and just say everything was great. This is the point behind this blog post and or why I started my blog. I would like to think I am a relatable wine drinker. I went off of a candy and wine pairing diagram I found on pinterest and then picked out my favorite candy. From their I found the wine that would pair with this candy. What I didn’t understand was how Starbursts paired with Pinot Noir. But it got even more weird when I tried a Reese cup with Pinot Noir. This first tasting as a total fail. It was what led me to my great idea for a YouTube video. I am sure other pairings fail as well. But thankfully I had great success with the rest of my pairings. I do not think peanut butter and wine go well together. Maybe its my inexperience of tasting wine and understanding the complexities and how pairings work or maybe it was the Pinot Noir I picked out? All and all I did not like either of the candies I had with the Pinot Noir. The wine tasted amazing it just didn’t taste good with candy mixed with it. The Pinot Noir I had picked out was from the winery Ardiri. It was their 2016 California Pinot Noir. Its a robust and fruit forward Pinot. I promise this wine is so good. I would buy this and drink it again.
Twix and Snickers pair so well with Malbec. I used Naked Wineries Perfect Match Malbec. They do not sell it anymore online unfortunately. I was so happy to be able to enjoy the candy with this wine. The Snickers was my favorite but the Twix was super good too. It was interesting how it brought the flavors of the wine out more. I have gone to a food and wine pairing before and that is some amazing shit right there. When it is done so perfectly it is a whole new world that your taste buds have been invited to. One big party in your mouth.
The Sauvignon Blanc and Prosecco blew my mind away. The Sauvignon Blanc and Skittles was my favorite pairing. That Sauvignon Blanc from Winc is a crowd pleaser. Oh my gosh it tastes so crisp and tropical. Which paired insanely well with the skittles. I bet the starbursts would have been good with the Sauv Blanc I should have tried that. The Sauvignon Blanc is from the Marlborough region of New Zealand. My favorite Sauvignon Blancs are from that area. This is now on my list of favorites. So thank you Winc. Tasting notes of grass, green apple, guava and lemon make it for a delicious wine.
The last pairing is a Prosecco with nerds. I think any Prosecco would be good with nerds. It kind of reminded me of pop rocks in my mouth. I preferred the strawberry flavor with the Prosecco but the grape was good as well. I think I liked the strawberry because strawberries and Prosecco pair very well together and makes a great garnish when serving Prosecco.
Hopefully your kids will share some candy with you so you can try some pairings together with what ever wine you are drinking. Or go out and buy the candy and give it a try and let me know what you think! Or what ones you have found that taste great together. Thank you for reading this if you have made it this far. I am really looking forward to next year when I can film a live tasting. Maybe I can get some friends to join me too! Cheers and Happy Halloween!
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Union Wine Co. Rose!
Rosé season never ends for me. I am sure others can agree with me when it comes to that. I figured this post was fitting for this time of year because we are all in the Fall spirit but we still want to carry on all the rosé we can into the Fall season. Union Wine Co. spoiled me when they sent me this package. I was expecting a bottle of their rosé and I would have been just as ecstatic about that as well but when these goodies showed up to my door I was over joyed and honored that they were willing to do this for me.
I wanted to do a break down of their 3 rosé’s that you can get bottled or canned. Union Wine co. is one of my favorites for wine. Canned or Bottled. They do such a great job when it comes to design, packaging, taste and even how they ship the wine. They have so many canned varieties. You should check it out and you can order the wine online. I have ordered a few of their canned wines before. Website will be linked below. I discovered Union Wine Co. 2 years ago at a burger restaurant back home in Buffalo NY and that’s where my love for them and canned wine started.
The first rosé is their bottled rosé. With tasting notes of strawberry, ruby red grapefruit and apricot. It is a rosé that can be enjoyed at any time. When I had this rosé for the first time I immediately added it to my go to bottles that I can always count on for a good glass and it would be a crowd pleaser.
“Straight from the Rosé City! Drinkable, unpretentious and travel-ready, this is the perfect wine for action lounging, such as poolside shindigs, outdoor music festivals, backyard BBQ’s with friends or anywhere that calls for serious lounging. It’s set to become your favorite spring and summer staple.”
The next rosé is their rosé bubbles. With tasting notes of wild strawberry, fruit cocktail and tart cherry. It was an easy rosé to drink and delicious. I really enjoyed the flavors of these bubbles. This is definitely my go to for rosé bubbles. It is bottled as well. It is a great option for mimosas, bridal showers, or the just because moments.
“It’s hard to keep your pinky up when you’re drinking wine from a 375 mL can. These are the most approachable and ready-to-travel anywhere wines we produce. Whether you’re sitting in a hot tub after a good day of riding or heading where other wines dare not travel, we have you covered without sacrificing the craft taste Union is known for.”
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Last but not certainly least is their rosé in a can. It has different tasting notes from their bottled rosé but it is just as good. With tasting notes of Strawberry, Watermelon, and Peach. I would honestly say this is my go to for canned wine in the summer. This is the one that never fails, tastes good and is travel friendly in a cooler. As Union Wine Co. says, “Good wine should be able to go anywhere.”
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Thanks for stopping by for this blog post. I hope you enjoy it and I hope you try Union Wine Co. If you do, let me know what you think! Cheers!
Bibliography:
“2018 UNDERWOOD ROSÉ WINE.” Union Wine Company, shop.unionwinecompany.com/collections/underwood/products/2014-underwood-rose-wine.
“UNDERWOOD ROSÉ.” Union Wine Company, shop.unionwinecompany.com/collections/underwood/products/underwood-in-a-can-rose.
Root Cause Book Review
A world without wine would be a scary place, and Corvina Guerra is investigating who is trying to harm vineyards all over the world. That is what Root Cause by Steven Laine is about. An experienced traveling winemaker and her passion for wine and finding out who is poisoning the vineyards all over the world.
I loved reading this book because I felt like I was right their with Corvina, tasting wine, traveling to different places and trying to figure out who was to blame for the Phylloxera outbreak. The book travels to many parts of the world from Italy, to London, Spain, Ontario Canada and more. It is a thrilling book for any wine lover or some one who just needs a good read. When Corvina discovered the Phylloxera on vines in a vineyard in Italy her and her friend Brian were immediately on the job of finding out who caused this to happen. They want to put a stop to this to protect the vineyard and many others. And what a ride it was reading the book and watching the story unfold. The action in the book starts right away. You don’t have to get through 10 chapters to finally get to some of the parts that have action. This book will not disappoint. This book has me wanting a sequel.
About the book:
“Can you imagine a world without wine?
Corvina Guerra is a flying winemaker who dreams of one day settling down in her native Italy on her family’s vineyard. On a visit to a vineyard in Italy, Corvina makes a startling discovery: Phylloxera, a menacing plant louse that devastated vineyards in Europe more than a hundred years ago, has infested the vines.
After reporting her findings to her company, Universal Wines, Corvina is charged with investigating the spread of the bug. Nicknamed Philomena by the media, the aphid is soon discovered in vineyards around the world. To aid in her investigation, Corvina recruits a wine expert in London, Brian Lawless. In pursuit of its origins, Corvina and Brian embark on a thrilling globetrot on which they uncover that Philomena is a genetically modified strain of Phylloxera and is being intentionally spread.
The deeper Corvina and Brian search, the more they become convinced that Universal Wines holds the answer to everything, and the harder they pursue their investigation the more surprises pile up for both of them.
In spite of devastating consequences, Corvina and Brian vow to continue their investigation and do what they can to contain the spread of the infestation – but time is running short and they always seem to be a step behind. Unless they can find a way to stop the Philomena – vineyards around the world will be ruined for decades; potentially causing the collapse of the wine industry. Can Corvina and Brian get to the root cause and save the international wine industry from ruin?”
About the Author Steven Laine:
Steven Laine is from Ontario, Canada and has dual Canadian and British citizenship. He has travelled the world working in luxury hotels for international brands including The Ritz, Hilton, Starwood, Marriott, Jumeirah and Pan Pacific. When he was Beverage Manager of a five star hotel in London, he learned all about wine and has since visited over one hundred vineyards and wineries in Napa, Sonoma, Burgundy, Bordeaux, Champagne, Spain, Portugal, Germany, Switzerland, Lebanon, Australia, and South Africa. As the only North American ever invited to be a Member of the Champagne Academy, he had the privilege to visit and learn from the major Champagne Houses in France. His circle of friends is made up of winemakers, Masters of Wine, Master Sommeliers, restaurant managers, and wine lovers and distributors from all over the globe.
Steven’s debut novel, Root Cause, will be released on February 19, 2019, published by Turner Publishing. Steven currently lives in Singapore and is now working on his next novel Dragonvine.
Bibliography:
Laine, Steven. “Root Cause.” Google Books, 2019, books.google.com/books/about/Root_Cause.html?id=3fjStwEACAAJ&source=kp_book_description.
Laine, Steven. “BIO.” Stevelaine 1, 2019, http://www.stevenlaine.com/bio.
Naked Winery Food and Wine Pairing
I am so happy to be bringing you this blog post of 2 of my favorite wines from Naked Winery. I paired them both with a meal you can make at home. This made my culinary soul so happy. I felt like I was back in school taking my cooking exams (I actually enjoyed that part of culinary school) and I think I passed this test with flying colors…. even though it wasn’t a test.
Naked Winery says it best as how to describe their company (About Naked Winery) They started in 2005. And what a community they have built. I visit Bend Oregon often and this is definitely one of the stops I have to make when I am in town. The staff at the location in the Old Mill District is so kind and fun to be around. I actually became friends with 2 of the girls who work their. So shout out to Kennedy and Jess for always making me feel right at home at the Bend location.
I discovered Naked Winery 3 years ago on my 25th birthday. Naked Winery had already been apart of my life because their wine corks were in my center pieces at my wedding! (3 years ago Tuesday we will have been married!). My Aunt had shipped some of their wine corks to me when I was in need of a lot of corks for 12 center pieces for the wedding. I asked my husband if we could make a trip to Bend for my birthday because its my happy place. We were in the Old Mill on my birthday walking around and shopping when we decided to stop in because I had remembered their wine corks. We fell in love with the wine and the vibe of the winery/company. We signed up for our membership right then and their that day. And its been a beautiful love story ever since with Naked Winery.
Naked Winery sent me the Diva Sangiovese and the Making Waves Albarino. The Diva is medium bodied wine, with aromas of pomegranate, and cocoa. The tasting palette is of cranberry with rich oak characteristics. I really enjoyed this Sangiovese as a summer red wine. I am normally very particular to whites and roses in the summer because I can’t handle the heaviness of a red wine in the middle of summer. But I personally did not think it was heavy at all. I really enjoyed it that night. I could have sat on my patio chatting with friends all night with a bottle of this. Summer campfire anyone? The Albarino makes me wish I was on a boat, on a lake just cruising around. It would be a great beach day wine. With aromas of coconut and pineapple. Flavors of ripe melon and juicy peach make it for a great summer wine.
I decided to pair the Sangiovese with zucchini lasagna rolls and the Albarino with a white fish in a wine, tomato basil sauce. Yum! Saturday night we started with the Zucchini Lasagna Rolls and they were so fun to make. I definitely recommend if you make these to make it a date night idea with you and your significant other because the rolling part of the Zucchini is a little time consuming. But I really enjoyed doing it together with my husband. Another way Naked Winery brings people together, good wine, and good food. So open your wine and get to rolling!
I prefer to decant my red wine and I have this super cute decanter that I found on Overstock. I also thought my dog mother wine lover t-shirt was fitting for this occasion as well. If you can spot my dog Brooke in the one picture she is there. She always likes to make an appearance. These zucchini lasagna rolls tasted so good! I always enjoy a lighter version of a pasta dish every so often. This Sangiovese would be great with a meat sauce as well. I made a loaf of garlic bread to go with the lasagna. All I do for garlic bread is cut a good loaf of Italian bread in half, thaw out some salted butter and add a couple of cloves of garlic to it and then spread it on. Heat your oven to 375 and bake for 20 minutes.
On Sunday I made the halibut in a white wine, tomato basil sauce. I was able to cook with the Albarino too because the recipe calls for a 1/4c of white wine. I only ever cook with wine that I would drink. This recipe is super easy, you make the sauce, and then pan fry the fish and finish it in the oven. I roasted some baby potatoes as a side dish. The recipe is for cod but I love halibut so I just switched the type of fish. This recipe also goes well with shrimp or scallop dishes. It is a great summer wine and this is a great summer dish.
I have been truly honored to work with Naked Winery and bring you this post. I am a huge fan of them and I hope you visit them if you are near anyone of their locations in Oregon. They are also opening a spot in Vancouver Washington next fall. I can’t wait to visit it! I promise you won’t be disappointed.
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White fish in a White Wine tomato sauce
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Prime & Wine Wednesday
Happy Prime & Wine Wednesday!
This week I am going to bring you some Buffalo NY favorites. Its food and drink related. If you like Italian sausage, wings, coffee and cappuccinos. Then this is going to be a great post for you. I am also going to teach you how to make the best air fryer chicken wings. If you are going to have chicken wings they need to be crispy, and served with blue cheese. #sorrynotsorry #noranch . I will still support and love you if you have ranch, I just may judge you a tiny bit haha :).
You can get mostly everything I mention off of amazon. Minus the wine. I actually got the platter pictured above off of amazon too.
Lets start with the Tim Horton’s items. I love Tim Horton’s or as some of us call it back home “Timmy Hos.” Tim Horton’s is technically Canadian but since Buffalo is so close to the border of Canada we just get to reap the benefits. I don’t drink coffee but all my friends back home who drink it love it. I also like their cappuccino mix they have too. You can buy both on amazon. I bet the 2 combo’d together would be pretty tasty.
My husband and I had so much fun making the wings and then the Italian sausage. It was also delicious to eat. If you like a spicy mustard, Weber’s mustard is perfect for you. Its a horseradish mustard. It tastes great on sausage. We made sandwiches with pepper, onions and sauerkraut. I definitely recommend it if you need to spice it up a bit.
Next up is the chicken wings. We made hot chicken wings and then chivettas chicken wings. Normally when I use the chivettas marinade I marinate chicken breasts over night and then I grill them. You definitely want to let your chicken marinate with this if you purchase and use it. Its a vinegar based marinade but it is so tasty. I used my air fryer to make the chicken wings because I wanted them crispy. Its the only way I like my wings. I purchased my air fryer from Target because it was on sale but I will link it below anyway in case you are in the market for one. I love mine. It is quick and easy to use. The clean up is not bad at all either. I was surprised how well the chicken wings did because this was my first time making chicken wings with it and they came out so good. I marinated the chivettas one and then I pre seasoned the ones that were getting the hot sauce from Duffs.
Pre season chicken wings with olive oil, salt and pepper and a little garlic powder. Stir and combine. Place in your air fryer and cook at 400 degrees for 8-10 minutes on each side. I noticed the chivettas ones crisped up quicker than the plain ones. After you have done both sides you can toss them in the Duffs hot sauce. If you don’t like them too hot you will need to add butter. That will take down some of the heat. I am sure the cooking time will vary depending on how big or small your wings are too so just be aware of that.
I am particular to Duffs hot sauce because that is my favorite place to have chicken wings back home in Buffalo. But you really can’t go wrong at any hole in the wall bar or pizzeria. Anchor bar is the home and origin of the Buffalo wing but I just think Duffs tastes so much better.
The wine I paired with this weeks purchase was a rose of Sangiovese from Stottle Winery here in Washington. There is a tasting room close to our apartment and I really enjoyed their wine when I went in to visit. Their grapes are grown in the Horse Heaven Hills area of Washington. It has aromas of guava, passion fruit, tart peach, strawberries, and rose hips followed by juicy flavors of nectarine, strawberry, honeysuckle, and tropical fruit.
I hope you enjoyed this weeks post! Cheers! Please let me know if you try anything from this post or my previous posts! I would love to know what you think!
My journey with Yoga Teacher Training
I am officially certified to teach Yoga!
It’s really crazy typing this up right now because on October 23rd 2018 was when I made this draft post for my blog. WOAH! I completed my 200 hours at Wild Thing Yoga in Bend Oregon. Helen Cloots is the yoga teacher that taught us 6 girls for 3 weeks.
Let me give you my yoga background first…..
I had been wanting to get certified for a really long time. I fell in love with yoga in high school. I started going my freshman year and I did it all through high school. I would go with my Mom, my neighbor Debbie and her daughter Lindsey. We both live on either side of a hill in my hometown back in NY. It was really kind of cool. We went to see a woman named Rose who was teaching at a local restaurant in East Aurora NY called the Roycroft. The Roycroft is very historic to East Aurora and they had other buildings on the property so she used a spare building to teach yoga. That place had some crazy vibes. I totally felt peoples past energies in that building. There was actually a specific part of the room that Rose showed me that had some really weird temperature changes and you could feel the air was thicker. It was one of my first experiences with anything like that. I just remember it so vividly with Rose. After a few months their Rose was renting a space at a church and then she opened up her own studio. It was a beautiful space. The building was bright pink and purple on the outside. But it had a very calm energy on the inside. I am so thankful for Rose. I needed yoga during high school because it helped me a lot through some depression, self harming, the abuse from my alcoholic father. It was my counselor at the time. When I got to college I didn’t put yoga first anymore to help myself and I just spiraled out and didn’t want to do yoga even though I knew how much it had helped me. I came back to yoga when I was 21/22. I am 27 now. I wish I had had a more frequent practice like I did in high school which was once a week every Tuesday. I started my at home practice and I would use YouTube and I would watch Yoga with Adrienne. Around that time was when I was like wow this would be so cool to get certified to teach. I never said anything to anyone about it. I just kept it to myself. Then a few years after that I saw a medium for the first time. I had never met her before. And one of the many things that came up was teaching yoga. I was shocked. I left feeling so good because I got messages from loved ones that I wasn’t expecting but they were so fulfilling. Then hearing about the yoga teaching I was like omg wow. I finally told my husband about me wanting to do this. I worked towards this goal. I originally wanted to do this last year but it just so happened to work out better this year. And that was it. I had signed up for YTT and I was finally going to get certified.
I made a mini vlog that I am going to post to my YouTube channel today as well, of my feelings before going into my first class and a little bit during and then the end. Its not anything too fancy. I wish I could have gotten more clips. It was such a roller coaster of emotions. It was challenging as well. But in the best way. It really helped grow me and broaden my knowledge. I plan on re-reading my training manual, which I call my yoga bible now, over and over.
I broke my pinky toe on my left foot on our first day off, while grocery shopping. It was really frustrating, I cried because I thought this was going to hinder me from participating more in the practice teaching. Thankfully it didn’t. I was still able to participate and do the best I could.
Most mornings I would go to the coffee place right next to the yoga studio and get a chai latte and an avocado bagel. I loved coming here before starting the day. I would sometimes get a matcha latte in the afternoon when I needed a pick me up.
There were 6 girls total and I couldn’t have asked for a better group to go through this journey with. They were all so nice and supportive. I miss them so much. It was so nice to be in a small group. I was worried it was going to be a big group and that was going to make me more shy and it was going to be hard to get along but that was not the case. We went shopping on our first day together, we got dinner, and even went out on a girls night too. I wish we all lived close so we could see each other a lot more.
During this I made sure to take the time to get a massage. I tried cupping for the first time and I am addicted. I love it. I need to find a place in Olympia for me to do it at. It is so important if you go through YTT to take the time to rest, and take care of yourself. It was a 3 week immersion so it was way more intense than some other YTT out there.
YTT was very healing and eye opening for me. When we got through to the mediation part of training. I was not expecting to be so emotional for me. During a mala bead meditation we did. Which is a meditation where you use a string of them. There are 108 beads on one necklace. You start at the larger bead that the 108 beads connect to and you pick a mantra and then say your mantra 108 times as you move your index finger and thumb over the bead. That day I picked the mantra “I am beautiful, I can do this.” I said that 108 times and I got so emotional. I was the last person to speak in our group of how I felt after and I completely lost it. I don’t believe the mantra I said to myself. But I know it is something I need to start believing. It was a beautiful process and I was shocked I got so emotional over it.
I was so nervous to teach my final class. I figured out my demographic of what I wanted to teach a little late to the game compared to my fellow yogis. So I personally didn’t feel prepared to teach but I did it anyway. I was happy because I taught a 40 minute class. It wasn’t an hour but my goal was at least 30 minutes. I was so proud of myself and it felt so good to do it and complete it!
And the next day we graduated! I couldn’t believe it was done! I am not sure what I want to do from here. I don’t want to teach in a studio. I actually would like to make videos to add to my YouTube channel. I have one big idea but I am keeping it to myself and I am trying to manifest it into happening. I hope to be able to share with you what this plan is but in case it doesn’t happen I will keep it to myself.
When I graduated I was so pleasantly surprised that my sister, a good friend, my Aunt and my Husband surprised me with gifts. Such fun gifts too! Like really thought out which made me feel even more special because it all related to yoga which was so much fun.
Thanks for reading! Cheers & Namaste!
